Ok it isn't even lunch, and I am blogging again. I am having an anxiety attack about the tests and the chemo. I have had a cat scan before so I know what it is, and chemo is just an iv drip in your arm and when I break it down like that, I am ok. It's the fact that the icky Doctor's office called and wanted me to come back on Friday and that sent me into orbit. I can't deal with Dr.robot man who has the personality of a tampon applicator but until I get path and get to the new Dr. I have to deal with him. Which reaffirms what I have already said, I have to get a good vibe from who is treating me or I can't fight a good fight. This also leads back to what I wrote earlier... WAITING.... I do not have the patience of a Saint.
I am going to try and sit in a chair today, something that has been very uncomfortable until now. I want to try and paint this afternoon. I think a creative outlet will be good and if I can manage to sit that will be fun.
Yes, Art Therapy and as much as possible. I think you'll create some interesting stuff through it all. Also, in addition to the blog, I suggest the "morning pages" if you feel up to it. It's where you just sit and write without thinking about why or making sense. it's just writing randomly the thoughts that come into your head. It's not for anyone to see, it's just an exercise in release. I use wordpad and then just delete it.
ReplyDeleteI hope you do paint. It will be interesting to see your angle, colors, subjects, etc.
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