I am on a roll

Make no bones about it. Cancer sucks. I have these big tumors in my tummy and they are in the way. They are in the way when I bend over. They press on things and cause pain. They affect my poo, my eating, they affect everything. I try to ignore them but i can't today. I just can't eat. At least I am hydrated. That is the most important thing. I try not to bitch but I hate these tumors and I am so ready for them to shrink. I am havingmstrange pains today, not sure what they are but that is what narcotics are for. I don't take them every day but I have to remember to not be bullet proof. I have a freaky high pain threshold and I find myself ignoring it. Soooooo, I a, going upstairs, still at mom's.going to watch house and the killing. Ok there is my cancer vent. I am restless and frustrated and I guess I am feeling better. I am quiet when I feel bad.peace