Going home

I get to go home today. Thank god we don't have to do iv nutrients. I am so ready to see my little dog. I have missed him so much! Last night was the first night I had a lot of discomfort. I guess the tumor is pressing. I hope this is not the beginning if a bad pain cycle. I don't want to get cranked up on the pain meds again. Let's cross our fingers for no pain. The dr. That was doing rounds came in today and was like I can only imagine how you must feel with this it isn't your fault. I was like I know that. Plus why would I lay here and be angry. It is a waste of energy. I can't change this. I can just patiently wait. And it is going to be a while. The best outcome is the chemotherapy kills this cancer. The second best outcome is the chemotherapy keeps the cancer at bay in my body like a Mexican stand off where it isn't growing. All I can do is wait. I hope the tumor starts shrinking so I can do more than lay here. Can't really sit in a chair at this point. It smashes the tumor.
Ok well that is all. I really have to sway for now. I am sure when I get home later, I will have plenty more. Peace out. Have a great day.