This blog is for Ba Ba

So here is the deal for my non chemo friends. Everyday is different and every day is the same. I feel good some days. Somedays I am nauseated. Not often. I do throw up a lot after I eat. Not food but liquid. I have tumors pressing and my tummy can only hold so much. It isn't a lot. Some things do not agree and come right back up.thank god that is not often. I have started iron and that is making me throw up but i was told to take the iron with more food so I hope we conquer this beast. I sleep better because I take this pain pill at night. I think I was sleep deprived for a while. So I have been a new person for the past couple of weeks. As far as my brain goes..... Fuck. I can carry on a conversation but if I am too weak or tired and it gets too deep, I have to shut it down. Can't deal. I can't read because I have no desire and when I do it takes to much focus. Somedays I can balance my checkbook. Somedays I can not write out a check. I can't focus on writing. For some reason I can blog and email but like I said if an email is too long, I delete. Can't focus. people give me magazines and pamphlets and I throw them on the table. I can't read them. I look at the pictures. I guess this is what they call chemo brain. Some days are worse. A lot of days are mild but reading a book is out all the time. But I am alive and happy and doing some things and I would be dead if I did not have the chemo.... So.... Chemo brain it is. Me and my handy companion are contemplating breakfast. Leslie is at boot camp. All is good.... I am going to try and get a handicap sticker today. Then I can Doris Day park everywhere.