Ugh

I do not understand how my ca125 can go down so much and my tummy swells so much. My weight is up but it is fluid because I am not eating much. My stomach is hard and uncomfortable and in the way. The pain pills make me cranky. I am going to suffer today because I do not want to be all buzzed when I get blood drawn. The iPad just fell back from my chest and gave me a bloody lip. I am laying on my back typing. I almost chunked it across the room but it cost too much. Ouch. Rid ignored me today. He stole a bra and was hauling ass around the house and then was happily resting in leslie's lap. They are out running their 2 miles before it gets too hot. I on the other hand am tired of laying in bed but don't feel like doing anything else. Maybe I will snap out of it. Chemo #5 is Thursday. I hope it doesn't kick my ass. My white blood count is low so I might have to have a nulasta shot. I am a little scared about that one. It makes your bones hurt. We will go to mom's wed. Rid can play with Charlie and ginger, his favorite dogs and he can see Stella Jane and Harris, his 2 favorite kids. He has celebrity status in derby hills! Lol! ok no more news. Cross your fingers I can eat today! Peace out.