Uncle Here

Here is the deal. I have tried to be really clear in this blog about what is going on. I am in a tenuous place caught between hospice and Dr. care. I need some second opinions. I have a finite amount of energy and only me to help myself. I have to research hospice, doctors, second opinions etc. Mom can't help. Friends want to help but they can't. I have tried that and it is too exhausting.i just need to plow through this. i need to get some more info but I can't answer questions right now. I also do not feel like chatting. I am exhausted and also very busy. i have so much to do before i start feeling bad. I have gotten conflicting information that i need to sort out. It is a whole puzzle. So I probably won't be calling to chat for a bit. i have a friend coming in town. We will probably work inn some of this together Monday. i am going to try and go back to my house to stay and I have to get set up there. So i probably a not going to be answering the phone much. I am fighting for my life before i start going downhill again. I have no idea what is next. Since I can't have any more chemicals I have no idea what is next. The Dr i had wants me to deal with hospice. Hospice says i am  not ready for hospice. And for the millionth time, there are no trials for me and I doubt i want to do them because I do not want the placebo if there were any. Also the chemo almost killed me so I can't take any more chemicals because i will probably seize and die and that is what I want the second opinion about.  There are only 3 drugs for my cancer and I did them. So bear with me and give me some space. i will update but I just need to rest and work on this and I need to be left alone a little. I love all of you. Email but don't call or text. I am at a better place to deal with emails.
Thx