Monday, July 11, 2011

Bad

I am still in the hospital and today was one of the harder days. Even though my ca125 was going down, I was sick because refractory tumors are growing. Meaning tumors that are new and separate during chemo. These tumors do not respond well to drugs and all in all it is bad news. I can get better but I need to be prepared to not get better also. My platelets are down so we are not starting the new chemo regimen right away. Also my kidneys are affected, they are backing up so stints might be put in place. I feel better in some ways and worse in others. I am sad and don't really feel like blogging today. I will write more tomorrow.
Just pray or send positive vibes to me. That would be most appreciated right now.
Peace
Posted by at

17 comments:

  1. SharonJuly 11, 2011 at 3:27 PM

    Oh Ellen, I'm so terribly sorry to hear this news. Prayers are coming your way from all directions. Hoping and praying for a miracle.

    ReplyDelete
  2. cancersucksJuly 11, 2011 at 4:06 PM

    Ellen,
    I have been checking your blog so many times in the past few days. I am sending prayers and comfort and love and positive energy and strength and wonderful care your way.

    ReplyDelete
  3. AnonymousJuly 11, 2011 at 4:27 PM

    My dear Ellen:

    I was so worried when you weren't able to blog for several days. Was trying to think of someone I could call about you. I don't have Marivee's phone number.

    I hate to hear the latest news doesn't sound so good, but glad to get your blog.

    Is there ANYTHING I CAN DO FOR YOU besides bring in your mail?

    Bob is still in the hospital with no end in sight.

    I love you,
    Su

    ReplyDelete
  4. UnknownJuly 11, 2011 at 6:22 PM

    thinking of you Ellen....

    annie

    ReplyDelete
  5. JoAnnJuly 11, 2011 at 6:29 PM

    Keeping you in my thoughts, Ellen.

    ReplyDelete
  6. janieJuly 11, 2011 at 6:41 PM

    I am sorry...really sorry. I wish I could think of something to say that would make a difference but I am coming up short. Just know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Love from Kentucky, Janie

    ReplyDelete
  7. AnonymousJuly 11, 2011 at 7:29 PM

    Never quit fighting. That is just the best message. And hold tight those you love.

    ReplyDelete
  8. DeborahJuly 11, 2011 at 7:50 PM

    Love, thoughts and prayers from Virginia too.... Deb

    ReplyDelete
  9. AnonymousJuly 11, 2011 at 8:24 PM

    Always thinking of you. Sending prayers for rest and better health. Sherrill

    ReplyDelete
  10. AnonymousJuly 12, 2011 at 4:41 AM

    Praying a Peace that passes all understanding for you to today.

    ReplyDelete
  11. janieJuly 12, 2011 at 7:46 AM

    Good Morning! I hope you got a good nights rest and and feeling better today :) Janie

    ReplyDelete
  12. Michelle MGJuly 12, 2011 at 9:05 AM

    I don't know what to say except dammit. I will find you in Atlanta on Saturday wherever you are. I know you are frustrated and hurting and this sucks. love you always, m.

    ReplyDelete
  13. pencil iconJuly 12, 2011 at 10:10 AM

    Big love and prayers to you...
    kris

    ReplyDelete
  14. Laura MartinJuly 12, 2011 at 10:37 AM

    The fight is always the hardest right before the victory. Remember that and don't give up and don't back down. Get fightin' mad and keep going and you'll win! I know it! I love you and am praying everyday! :)

    ReplyDelete
  15. EloiseJuly 12, 2011 at 4:38 PM

    Thinking of you, Ellen, and praying for a miracle.

    Love you ~ Weasel

    ReplyDelete
  16. CatherineJuly 13, 2011 at 6:02 AM

    Dearest Ellen, thinking of you in a favorite place - resting on your porch, drinking the life-giving bean, Ridley by your side. I know you'll be back soon. Love you and sending good vibes. Catherine

    ReplyDelete
  17. Lisa MJuly 13, 2011 at 5:42 PM

    Thinking of you and definitely sending positive vibes your way.

    Lisa M

    ReplyDelete

Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom)