Meat is really grossing me out. Not so much in things like spaghetti sauce but big pieces of it. I need to eat some because I am sooo burned out on chicken. I tried to eat lamb yesterday but it tasted like cardboard in sauc. I am not sure if what was my chemo taste buds or the lamb itself.
Oh well... It is a great morning. Ridley is on the porch barking at nothing. ( usually a squirrel or someone walking their dog). It is cool and nice out. I am so ready for the fall. I think I could do part of the sweetwater trail when it cools off. It isn't too hilly. i just want to get outside and walk in the woods.
I have been trying to buy some new clothes since I gave away 16 bags of clothes. I am having to starrt over except for some shoes( my feet got narrow again0 and my winter coat. I got lucky yesterday and scored a $229 ralph lauren sweater for $19. YES!
I seem to be in a good state. I am ging back in the hospital, I htink, next week for the 3rd round of this chemo. He wants to go back up to the full dose. Let's hope I don't go batshit crazy again.
I am actually going stir crazy. i am so sick of this cancer and being limited. You have NOOOOO idea.
I wish it would just go away. Some of you can relate to this, i want my old life back and the old me back and it won't be that way again. I am dealing, I just miss it.
Your life will have a new normal from now on. It's going to be a different normal but new and better nonetheless! Rejoice that you are beginning to feel better. Sending prayers and hugs your way, sounds like things are getting better....eat up!
ReplyDeleteLast week it was a year since I started chemo. I never would have believed that I could feel as good as I do now. (except for the DAMN neuropathy). Yes, it IS a new normal, but it is good. I just get sad sometimes and am still full of fear. Guess that is part of this new normal.....
ReplyDeleteThinking of you.
JOANN